If everything was easy it wouldnt have been this special
so you lay out all your cards and let yourself feel
all the things you wanna feel,cause it felt right
then it leaves..softly yet so sweetly …she goes
how do you cushion the blow?
how do you constantly tell yourself no it doesnt hurt
when you know you are completely lying to yourself.
there i said it
she knows.
now i sit here and feel the immense pain and lost
and what keeps me going is the fact that
she is happy
thats all that matters right
im going to miss her to death
i feel lost
its back to the days that we are going to
walk pass the hallways and be strangers again
how do you do that ..
when there was so much foundation
what am i going to do now
i love her
i came across something today.
chemistry.if you have it you just need one other thing…timing
i dont have alot to say today.but to be grateful for that our paths are aligned at this very moment.
but instead of dweling on the sad stuff i rather focus on whats good.
pen down certain things i dont wanna forget so ill keep reading it over and over again.
i like how she is so herself around me.
i like how she puts her hand on my face and asks me whats wrong when she feel somethings up.
i like her hand on my hair and her super tight yet comforting hugs.
i like how she is so adorable when she is really trying not to be.
i like the way she looks at me sometimes..like nothing else matters.
i like how she smiles ,or how she looks when she is asleep.
i like how she holds my hands and grabs me sometimes
i like how i can tell when she is lying through her teeth.
i like it when sometimes she bends her head down and tries to look at me.
i like her when she just wakes up.
i like it when she has her head on my chest
i like when she laughs at my jokes
i like when she observes my awkward little finger sticking out
most of all i like every single thing about her
and moreover
i love the way she makes me feel
happiness ,content,joy and the fact that life is somehow worth it again.
she is really fucking special.
